My Story

The writing below is my testimony...this is part of my journey...


lil girl full of life
laughing, loving, always a smile
soon anger, bitterness and hatred took over
questioned “why so much anger lil girl?”
can’t tell my secret
so buried it deep
never to be talked about
years go by and more secrets fill the lil girl who’s trapped in a woman’s body
finding quasi-peace in arms and bottles
the shape of her body draws like honey
bringing hornets to the nest
heart hardened to words and actions
walls so high nobody dared climb
hoping for a life preserver to be tossed her way
little did she know God had begun to work
slowly unweaving the tangle that had become heart and life
one day secret pops out
how childhood innocence was stolen
by a wolf in sheep’s clothing
hardened heart becomes softer
opening the door for healing
feeling freedom
still moments of anger
but keeping her eyes on the goal
refusing to go back
no matter how bad the flesh rises
peace and joy flood the soul
which has been awakened by the stirrings of God
visions of the call resound deep within
prayer, quiet time and Jesus
replaced bottles and arms
preparing this heart for what lies ahead
filling it with forgiveness and
love
for the one who scarred her cause there was One who was scarred for her...